22.6.08 -- A Touch of Randomness...I Guess
And so the hols seem to continuously bore me to death, seeing as I've been using the opportunity to stay home and rest my leg pretty much the whole time. Finally went to meet the doctor again today for a check-up but I can't really say things are all that good after all. Nope, don't go flying off the handle - it's not like I'll never walk again or something THAT serious; just that my
ankles (yes, note the use of a PLURAL noun, implying both legs) are severely weak. To think all this time I kept beating myself up about not being able to do one-legged stunts. NOW I FINALLY KNOW WHY!!!
T_T
Frustrating...my weak ankles have affected by balancing abilities. In more simple terms, let's just say that I'm more likely to lose my balance than most people. Thinking back, I wondered why I always tripped so often even in flats. Plus my obsession with high heels...darn.
I could honestly have done with that knowledge a bit (say FIVE years) sooner. Really should have seen a sports doctor in the past about all those injuries I got from my track and field days during primary.
Alas, regret. It's not like I figured it'd be a liability the way it turned out to be. I've sprained my ankle a whole lot over the years so it REALLY is in bad shape now I guess. Of course, what scares me more is that it's going to be hard for me to continue doing hardcore cheer training, especially if I'm the flyer. Serious tough luck!! He also says to try some low impact exercise like walking or cycling to help build my ankle muscles back. The sad part is, that's going to take some time...
I hate to admit it but I really felt like tearing in there when the doc told me. Cheer is truly important to me because it made me realize there was more to life than what I first thought. I don't expect anyone to ever understand what I mean I guess but I wholly wanna perform at least one more time before I might just have to give the sport up for good.
Lesson learnt = DON'T take anything for granted.
The rest is still unwritten...
