30.8.09 -- Tashika Ni, Optimism
Over the course of my single year in college, I guess I've established myself as someone--the weird freaky cheerleader girl who kept smiling wherever she went (oh, and spent half of her first semester as the campus' very own Bionic Woman--lol!).
I remember asking some friends during one of our more 'free' periods, "What was your first impression of me?" The answers turned out pretty funny, now that I think about it. One of them - I cannot remember who - said she (yes, at least I remember it was a girl) thought I was this really punky, stylish person. Why? She said it was because of the clothes I wore and my freaky stilettos.
Haha! And so my love for heels and fancy clothes are the cause! Too bad I ain't trading my classy fashion for anything...ever...maybe. You know what, we'll see!
Anyways, apparently that friend of mine thought I was some really fierce Femme Fatale (lol--can you believe that? I blame the fiery red hair and the Sasuke-ish hairstyle). Me? A Femme Fatale? If anything I think I'm more either 'the dark loner in the corner' and maybe part 'the cheerleader' or 'girl next door'. Femme Fatale however, is totally pushing it (haha).
Thank goodness her opinion of me's changed, huh? Just goes to say one really can't judge people by their outer selves (and now I'm going all Shugo Chara!-ish XP).
Honestly, 'Cool and Spicy'. I've learnt a whole lot from that Anime, Shugo Chara! And heck I like it a lot, probably because I can relate pretty well with the main character, Amu. She's a totally different person on the inside than what she lets people see on the outside. It's almost hilarious to see the transitions from her 'cool' self to her...eh...'real' self? Hmm...
Of course, the Anime's all about 'finding your true self' so Amu gradually changes and is able to show who she really is to the world. I hope to be like her too, someday. To be able to portray my true colors.
Somehow, I've really learnt over the years to break free from the outer shell I've hidden under for so long; slowly but surely. Those who know me now and can actually make the comparisons to way back when, you'd definitely see the big difference. I'm still that same girl, but different all the same. It's funny, it's weird, it's almost crazy to comprehend, but all of it's true. I know I still have my odd, inhuman-ish issues and my mentality's probably the freakiest thing on this planet (heck I'm naive and childish), I have my ups and downs, my quirks, my peeves...I'm me. Yet someday I'll be so much more.
I'll be who I want to be.
The rest is still unwritten...
